NaPoWriMo Day Nineteen: Abecedarian

A big cat
devours each fine grace
hiding its juvenile kin
licking morsels new, old
probing quiet reality
tots underneath verbal, whining
Xena's young, zealous.

heidi
written; 4/19/19 for:

Okay, so that was fun! I had the hardest time trying to find an "r" word for some reason.  I don't remember writing an abecedarian like this. I usually write them with the first word of each line following the alphabet. I wanted to challenge myself a little more, so I did it the strict way. And I like it. I don't get it, but I like it. 

NaPoWriMo Day Eighteen: The Why

it's the why
that leaves the biggest void
the empty, hungry ache
in my stomach.

why did you die?
why did you wait?
why did I let you wait so long?
why didn't you know that you were worth more than a hospital bill?
why are you gone?
why am I still here?
why am I going through daily without you?
why?

I yell for you when the house gets too quiet.
why won't you answer?
I talk to your ashes
but they are silent.

it's unfinished business
this why
without a way to answer.


heidi
written 4/18/19 for:

NaPoWriMo Day Seventeen: iPad

watching my insides
always touching, swiping my face
don't drop me.

heidi
written 4/17/19 for:

This was a fun one! But it helps that I have had a really good day.

NaPoWriMo Day Sixteen: Writer's Block

sitting looking waiting
the equivalent of writing constipation
where're my words?

heidi
written 4/16/19 for:

So blocked this morning.

NaPoWriMo Day Fifteen: Collom Lune Instead

No monologue today
There are so few words
Within my reach

heidi
 written: 4/15/19 for:

I just don't have enough words for a monologue today. 

NaPoWriMo Day Fourteen: Untitled

Running the herd
Are you really heard, or
Are you hurt?


heidi
written: 4/14/19 for:

Meh. We are working with homonyms, homographs,  and homophones today. I was really reaching for something. I did like the scant rhyme in there, though.

NaPoWriMo Day Thirteen: He's Dying

Ma'am,  you need
To come back now, it
Is almost time.

heidi
written 4/14/19 for:

I'm a day behind.  The day thirteen prompt was to write something scary. This is what the nurse said to me before my husband's heart stopped the first time in the hospital. 

NaPoWriMo Day Twelve: Dissolution

Our marriage
fell away
piece
  by
     piece

We were friendly
distant
roommates
with no where for me to
store my love for you

I couldn't dismantle
the walls
you would build
quick enough

and then you were gone.

Before I was ever sure that you knew
How much I love you.

heidi
written: 4/12/19 for:

Today I followed the prompt, sort of, by writing about the dismantling of something important.

NaPoWriMo Day Eleven: This Me

Where did I begin?
This me
now?

I started where you ended
the first day of that 15 day journey
with your first step
away
from me

I break from the chrysalis
of your death

lonelier
angrier
sadder
and
stronger

from the loss and the love of you.

This me misses you.

heidi
written: 4/11/19 for:

Well, I have definitely carved out a theme for this year's NaPo. We were supposed to write an origin story. 

NaPoWriMo Day Ten: Another Thing

We had a passion
hotter than the blue blazes
that our marriage
seemed to
extinguish

One that we could never
seem to recreate
before you died.

It's another thing about us
that I mourn.

heidi
written: 4/10/19 for: