just when everything
seems
okay...
I am overwhelmed
by the bland lonliness
of my life.
thedis tance bet we e n m y h u s b a n d a n d I s t r e t c h e s
e v e n f u r t h e r.
I am
sitting
in a
room
with two lovely
small
children
and
I
am
all
alone...
when a second ago
everything seemed
fine.
heidi
written 6/4/14
blah. one of those get it out of me so I can fucking enjoy watching my son surround himself with all of his toys on the kitchen floor.
seems
okay...
I am overwhelmed
by the bland lonliness
of my life.
thedis tance bet we e n m y h u s b a n d a n d I s t r e t c h e s
e v e n f u r t h e r.
I am
sitting
in a
room
with two lovely
small
children
and
I
am
all
alone...
when a second ago
everything seemed
fine.
heidi
written 6/4/14
blah. one of those get it out of me so I can fucking enjoy watching my son surround himself with all of his toys on the kitchen floor.
You express your feeling so lucidly here. I get it.
ReplyDeleteI hate that distance...I have experienced it...You have written it so well.
ReplyDeletehugs. hard place of being.
ReplyDeletelong distance relationships in the same house.
nice play with structure.
Hugs lovely Heidi.
ReplyDeleteIn a similar lonely place myself - so much apologies for not emailing (yet).
Love ya!
Anna :o] (or maybe :o[)
You sum up so well what I imagine quite a lot of people go through but many can't/don't put it into words.
ReplyDeleteAnother thing I like is that the distance could be anything from a marriage-on-the-rocks crisis to you just miss him while he's at work. Whatever it might be, it still seems far.
I like how you embraced the ambiguity of the situation and roll with it.
ReplyDeleteHugs. Hard place to be in. Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteI certainly hope that this is fictional in nature, and if not, I hope that you and yours find peace soon.
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