Remember The Time Jo-Pa Got Fired For Letting A Coach Rape Some Kids?

White people don't riot, I read
Right there on my  ol' Facebook feed
The truth is, I fear
Quite different, my dear
There was an old coach, quite "bullied."

heidi
11/26/14

I don't even know what to say here.

My First Novel

the writing is slow
my morale, an all time low
I think my book idea may blow
fuck you NaNoWriMo.

heidi
11/17/14

I think we know what I've been doing lately.

Eligibility

the results
and with a handful of numbers
the hope I didn't know I still had
implodes.

hope
the eternal motherfucker
that makes it easy for me
to reject her reality

"don't focus too much on the numbers"
so she can still catch up?
"well, you really don't see huge leaps, but she can make some gains"
all hope hears is: sure she can catch up

we talk about how constant seizures
can cause brain damage
and we need to work on building
new pathways

I never let myself consider that the seizures were causing damage.

her teacher emphasizes how wonderful she is
just as she is
and she is
wonderful.

And I don't give one flying fuck
I want her where she should have been
if only
I had been better and took her to the neurologist sooner.

at the eligibility meeting today
I learned that my daughter is average
when it comes to reading comprehension
and below average on everything else

except being a wonderful person-there she is above average


heidi
written 11/12/14

no comment tonight

The Evils of Halloween

when i was a kid
i thought that Charlie Brown
should teach those mean rock givers
the true meaning of
trick-or-treat

visiting later to return the rocks
through car or house
windows.

what kind of evil adult would give one kid out of a group rocks for halloween?

much less a whole neighborhood.

now that I am an adult
and a mom

I agree with my kid self.

What a bunch of evil motherfuckers.

heidi
11/11/14

okay so it's a little late. my sweetie-pies have just discovered charlie brown and the grinch and i keep hearing this stuff.