Saturday, March 11, 2017

Nothing To Watch

When I was a little girl
I would lie awake alone
at night
afraid and lonely
battling with all of the thoughts
that said I was never good enough.
And I would wish for the time
when I would be grown up
and not have to think those thoughts
or at least have someone I chose there with me
to tell me it was okay.
Someone to be with.
If not that, then at least I could get up and watch TV.
But here I am.
All grown up.
With a house full of people I love,
but they are all asleep.
Even the puppy resting on my feet.
And I still feel so alone and lonely.
With nothing I want to watch on the

written: 3/11/17

Depression and Anxiety are really getting on my fucking nerves, y'all.


  1. So sad you're depressed and anxious lovely Heidi.
    I understand about the TV thing - so many channels and nothing worth watching. Grrr!
    After posting this comment - gonna send you an email.
    Kind regards
    Anna :o]

  2. Hi Heidi

    Twice attempted to send you an email - but in both instances it is telling me Address Not Found. Maybe you could write to me? Email address on blog.

    More kind regards
    Anna :o]

  3. From a million miles away, I hope you're doing better today, and I would give you the longest, warmest hug in the world, if I could. Hang in there, firecracker.


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