When I was a little girl
I would lie awake alone
at night
afraid and lonely
battling with all of the thoughts
that said I was never good enough.
And I would wish for the time
when I would be grown up
and not have to think those thoughts
or at least have someone I chose there with me
to tell me it was okay.
Someone to be with.
If not that, then at least I could get up and watch TV.
But here I am.
All grown up.
With a house full of people I love,
but they are all asleep.
Even the puppy resting on my feet.
And I still feel so alone and lonely.
With nothing I want to watch on the
TV.
heidi
written: 3/11/17
Depression and Anxiety are really getting on my fucking nerves, y'all.
I would lie awake alone
at night
afraid and lonely
battling with all of the thoughts
that said I was never good enough.
And I would wish for the time
when I would be grown up
and not have to think those thoughts
or at least have someone I chose there with me
to tell me it was okay.
Someone to be with.
If not that, then at least I could get up and watch TV.
But here I am.
All grown up.
With a house full of people I love,
but they are all asleep.
Even the puppy resting on my feet.
And I still feel so alone and lonely.
With nothing I want to watch on the
TV.
heidi
written: 3/11/17
Depression and Anxiety are really getting on my fucking nerves, y'all.
So sad you're depressed and anxious lovely Heidi.
ReplyDeleteI understand about the TV thing - so many channels and nothing worth watching. Grrr!
After posting this comment - gonna send you an email.
Kind regards
Anna :o]
Hi Heidi
ReplyDeleteTwice attempted to send you an email - but in both instances it is telling me Address Not Found. Maybe you could write to me? Email address on blog.
More kind regards
Anna :o]
From a million miles away, I hope you're doing better today, and I would give you the longest, warmest hug in the world, if I could. Hang in there, firecracker.
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