it's the why
that leaves the biggest void
the empty, hungry ache
in my stomach.
why did you die?
why did you wait?
why did I let you wait so long?
why didn't you know that you were worth more than a hospital bill?
why are you gone?
why am I still here?
why am I going through daily without you?
why?
I yell for you when the house gets too quiet.
why won't you answer?
I talk to your ashes
but they are silent.
it's unfinished business
this why
without a way to answer.
heidi
written 4/18/19 for:
that leaves the biggest void
the empty, hungry ache
in my stomach.
why did you die?
why did you wait?
why did I let you wait so long?
why didn't you know that you were worth more than a hospital bill?
why are you gone?
why am I still here?
why am I going through daily without you?
why?
I yell for you when the house gets too quiet.
why won't you answer?
I talk to your ashes
but they are silent.
it's unfinished business
this why
without a way to answer.
heidi
written 4/18/19 for:
Powerful words and expressions in this piece. Well written.
ReplyDeleteThank you! And welcome to the lasagna.
Deletealmost moved me to tears. :(
ReplyDeleteThis breaks my heart :((
ReplyDeleteI like how you present "why" as unfinished business that can't be finished.
ReplyDeleteIt is always so...
ReplyDeleteonly afterwards we realize that it's too late...