Your Flame is Not Your Only Light

For the past seven
     years
we've been more
     strangers
than friends.

     Life
has kept us apart
     and still
I love you

Spending time with
     you
this weekend was
     not what
I thought it would be.

Years ago - in our
     twenties
you told me that when
you felt
     insecure
     afraid
     threatened
that is when you would
     flame

So I watched you
     be
the gay butt of
     every
stupid, asshole.
     redneck
          joke
at the wedding

I watched as the
     flames
consumed my most
  favorite friend
     and
in the middle of all that
     joy
My heart
     broke.

There is so much
     more
to you than who you
     fuck

There is how you
     love
And your dear sweet
     heart

You don't need to
     perform
for approval or
     love

I'll always love
     you.

heidi
written 5/12/14

For my dear sweet friend who does not realize how truly wonderful he is.