NaPoWriMo Day Thirty: Now That It's Over

now it's over
maybe I can visit blogs
read what's written.

heidi
written 4/30/16 for

 I have a lot of reading to catch up on.

NaPoWriMo Day Twenty-Nine: A Good Day To Cry

doctor saddens me
still I binge watch compulsively
today's for sobbing.

heidi
written 4/29/16 for

He gets to me, the Doctor does.

NaPoWriMo Day Twenty-Eight: An Odd Sort of NaPo

four things scheduled
in as many days, my
depression is pissed.

heidi
written 4/29/16 for

This has been a weird NaPo year for me.

NaPoWriMo Day Twenty-Seven: Don't Blink

my son fanboys
Weeping Angels, watching with me
growing during blinks

heidi
written 4/27/16

My little fellow is growing up too fast. 

NaPoWriMo Day Twenty-Six: Happy Birthday Jo

so much accomplished
in such a short time
deserves our celebrations!


heidi
written 4/27/16 for

So for the 26th, my daughter participated in the Special Olympics, and my friend Jo had both a birthday and a film screening. It was a good day.

NaPoWriMo Day Twenty-Five: Help Me Out

coughing up frogs
that's gotta mean something like
armageddon or ...

heidi
written 4/25/16


Holy fuck, I have run outta words. I have failed my form. What would fit? Butts? Hemorrhoids? Constipation? Republicans? Feminazis? (yes, I am still pissed about that.)

I am open to suggestions.

NaPoWriMo Day Twenty-Four: I Thought I Had Posted A Poem

Saturday night
I dreamed that my throat
was sore
        just a little twinge every tenth swallow

and my mouth felt fluffy
even after eating blackberries

so i looked in the mirror and moths
black and more lovebug
than moth looking
were crawling on my teeth
        which were purple from the blackberries
and the moths, which i knew were moths
and not lovebugs because
my mouth felt glimmery

those lovebug looking moths
wouldn't get out of my mouth
until i spit
and then they were dead
their wadded bodies in the sink

and my throat twinged and made me cough

i coughed up a handful of muck
which turned out to be a bunch of baby green frogs
looking at me like
what the fuck, heidi?

and i was unsure if they were upset
that they were in my throat
or that i had coughed them up.

as it occurred to me to be
freaked out

i woke up


with a twinge in my throat on the tenth swallow.

and i learned that if you google
"dream of coughing up f"
it will auto suggest
"frogs"

which, to me, is next level freaky shit.

which is why i am writing this on the twenty-fifth instead the twenty-fourth.


heidi
written 4/25/16 for

I have some fucked up dreams y'all.

NaPoWriMo Day Twenty-Three: Ouroborous

everything in decay
breaking without warning requesting new
start again tomorrow.

heidi
written 4/23/16 for

What would I do without Collom Lunes?

NaPoWriMo Day Twenty-Two: The Oak Tree

erupting in green
new leaves reach towards sun
shading the yard.

heidi
written 4/22/16 for

NaPoWriMo Day Twenty-One: Standing Vigil

across the yard
the gingerbread children watch silently
the witch beckons.

heidi
written 4/21/16 for

NaPoWriMo Day Twenty: Tardy

I'm a racetrack-turtle
Moving too fast and creeping
Early for tardiness.

heidi
written 4/20/21 for

I'd be on time if I lived on the west coast, but, as it is, I am a little late with a scrawled and token kenning.

NaPoWriMo Day Nineteen: How To Get Out of Trouble

Eli!!!!!
Why are there melted chocolate chips in the bed?!?!?!?!!
My six year old freezes midstep, and turns to look at me.

Mom, that was so kind of you to buy those chocolate chips
and you're such a good cheffer at making cookies.

...

You look really pretty with the white streaks in your hair.


...

I crack first.

Then he laughs with me.

Get outta here kid and go clean off those chocolate chips!
You're still in trouble!!!!

I watch his curly head as he bounces off
then, absentmindedly,

go make some cookies.


heidi
written 4/19/16 for

Hey look! I'm on prompt and raising a con man!

NaPoWriMo Day Eighteen: Found Feminazi Part Two: A Nice Lady

I 
    didn't 

call her a name

.... 


technically. 

But 

          I made a 

                                  STATEMENT

 about Feminazis 

which 

*just happened* 

to be 

p r e c e d e d 

by her comments. 

I'm 

        sure 

                   she's 
   
                                 a 

                                       nice 

                                                   lady.


heidi
written 4/18/16 for

I will so write a motherfucker.

NaPoWriMo Day Seventeen: Found Feminazi

Feminazis 

are 
never 
satisfied! 

Ever try 
to argue 
-for their side- 
and simultaneously 
be 
a 
MALE? 

Ha! 

I'll just keep supporting 

female 

e
qua
li
ty 

and 

~ignore~

 how I can never 
*REALLY*
 understand.

heidi
written 4/17/16 for 

So you know what happens when you troll a NaPoWriMo'er on Facebook? They turn your shit into found poetry! Troll away!

NaPoWriMo Day Sixteen: Hey Y'all, Let's All of Us Watch Squirm!

watching MST3K play
oversoutherned accents fighting electrified worms
makes me Squirm.

heidi
written 4/16/16 for

I am so late writing again! But I sort of wrote about something, right?

NaPoWriMo Day Fifteen: Fuck You J.J. Abrams (contains spoilers)

Star Trek reboot
Let's reduce Uhura's cool to
just Spock's armcandy

and Spock's moment?
where he embraces his humanity?
given to Kirk.

one last chance
maybe you'll awaken the Force ...
You. Murdering. Bastard.

heidi
written 4/15/16 for

Fuck you so hard, J.J. Abrams! Although, I am actually putting something into the writing today. Maybe there's a lift in the Depression onset writer's block I have been experiencing. Although that may have also been wrote-something-too-emotionally-draining-and-needed-to-recover.  I also have a lot of NaPo reading to do now!!!

NaPoWriMo Day Fourteen: Nope

nope nope nope
nope nope nope NOOOOOpe nope
No.  No.  No.

heidi
written 4/14/16 for

and the real fucker of it all is that, early this morning, when I finally started to fall asleep, this, awesome free verse flowed through me and it was fierce and powerful and pissed off and sad and funny, and I can't remember one. fucking. word. of. it. and i have tried all fucking day.

NaPoWriMo Day Thirteen: Collom Lune

expletive expletive expletive
declarative statement with emotional relevance
poem poem poem

heidi
written 4/13/16 for

Sorry for phoning it in the last few days, maybe I should put a disclaimer on these. I didn't even check out the prompt today. :(

NaPoWriMo Day Twelve: Stitches

my little one
so brave when faced with
stitching up bobos.

heidi
written 4/12/16 for

Nope. Still not feeling it.

NaPoWriMo Day Eleven: Writing About Not Writing

I do not want to write today
I do not care what you may say
My stomach, she is really mad
Which makes my boody really sad
So excuse me, I am on my way
To binge watch MST3K.

heidi
written 4/11/16 for

I just ain't feeling it y'all.

NaPoWriMo Day Ten: Off Prompt

listen to me
you will understand if just
you will listen.

heidi
written 4/10/16 for

I liked the prompt for today, but I am running late, so I just wrote this. 

NaPoWriMo Day Nine: Idoltury

I refuse to worship
the soldier,
to give credit to the military
for the sacrifices of civilians

placing on an alter
a false profit
a negative gain
unquestioned obedience
getting credit
for the work of thugs and communists and feminazis and terrorists and hippie treehuggers

as our suffrage decreases
and our suffering increases
I resent mutilated humans flashed on facebook
as cheap inspiration porn
fueling the self gratification of fear
and ejaculating hate

send our children to made up wars
to prove your dick is bigger than
your dad's
and use their broken bodies
and shattered souls
to shame an Olympic heroine
or deny safety, mercy and grace to a refugee

i will not worship hate
i will not disrespect humanity
with false flattery
seducing the afraid and ignorant
to offer up their arms
as sacrifices

there are just some things I will not fear

heidi
written 4/9/16 for

Blarg! Today we are supposed to write something that is scary for us to write. And, yes, I totally wrote that what is scary for me is not being afraid. This is a really raw (translation: if you need to critique, tread softly, because I can't be objective about this one yet) free write free verse. I need to go write something funny now. 

NaPoWriMo Day Eight: dandelion seeds

wishing on dandelions
send the petals flying away
bring me peace.

heidi
written 4/8/16 for

Today's post was to write about a flower. I think that dandelions are amazing and beautiful. 

NaPoWriMo Day Seven: His Song

i'm not hungry

nor lost in the memory

saying your name

my lips name

no thirst no pseudo hungry

just the memory

tender stabbing memory

the taste of your name

it sounds hungry

the name in my memory leaves me hungry.

heidi

written 4/7/16 for 

Today's prompt was to write a tritina. And since I was writing tercets anyway ... Collom Lune! (and yes, I totally said that in my head in Gru's "lipstick taser" voice. )

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GfGLqZYJqQM

NaPoWriMo Day Six: Tacos Tacos Tacos

I like crunchy
spicy crisp creamy cheesy filling
tortilla wrapped heaven.

heidi
written 4/6/16 for

I want tacos for breakfast, but I don't want to go make them. I'm thinking about just having taco fixings always at the ready, just for taco emergencies such as these.  And in case you didn't see, the NaPo prompt today was to write about food.  Anyone want to bring me a taco? I'll be your best friend!

NaPoWriMo Day Five: My Flower

young bud blooming
blue, ivory, yellow, pink hues
my sweet girl.

heidi
written 4/5/16 for

I went off prompt today. Happy birthday to my favorite girl!

NaPoWriMo Day Four: Cruel

the cruelest month
is forever the one where
I said goodbye.

heidi
written: 4/4/16 for

Blah! I am feeling a little burned out today. It seems early in the month to dread coming to a prompt. Maybe it just that it's Monday, and the weekends wear me out. Today's prompt was to write about the cruelest month. Blah+burned out+NaPo prompt=COLLOM LUNE!!!!!!!!

NaPoWriMo Day Three: Hovering

i am
your biggest fan
hovering over the
line between admiration and
obsession.

heidi
written: 4/3/16 for

So for day three, the prompt is to write a fan letter. Sometimes I worry that I am too much of a fangirl of whatever or whomever holds my attention.  (This is one of those times that I don't like that I lean so much to confessionalist poetry.) Also, I am totally one syllable over regulation for a cinquain.

NaPoWriMo Day Two: Rock Stars

photo and poem by heidi helmer

I live in
a state of constant awe
my rock stars.

heidi
written 4/2/16
for

Today we are writing a family portrait.  Once again, I have chosen to write a Collom Lune because I LOVE THEM SO MUCH! Be sure to check out the NaPo site and have fun getting your poem on!

NaPoWriMo Day One: Lunar Shower

Poem a day
the challenge begins, showering April
with lovely words.

heidi
written: 4/1/16
for

Woohoo! It's time for NaPoWriMo! And we're starting off with lunes, which, you may remember are my most favorite form! I chose the Collom Lune for which is a tercet with word counts for each line. Lines one and three have three words and line two has five. Happy poeming y'all! (Also so counting this towards my Camp NaNoWriMo word count. All the words! Yay!)