Tuesday, February 5, 2013

dverse Open Link Night: Repost of She's Still the Same Girl

dverse prompt and poem repost:
She's Still the Same Girl

Driving to the office, I tell myself
Whatever they say, whatever they find,
she's still the same girl that she is right now.
You're not going to come home with a
stranger.
You'll love her the same.
She's still the same girl.

I am worried as I sit her in my lap and they prepare her for the test.
She does not like things on her head.
What if she fights?
What if she gets too upset?
Should I just leave with her?
We've gone this long
unsure.
We'll get tests later.
She'll still be the same girl.

Once again, my sweetheart surprises me.
She laughs when the nurse gets Eeyore ready first.
He's so cute! Silly Eeyore!
My girl sits still and even falls asleep towards the end.
I always seem to underestimate my baby.
She's so wonderful.
She's still the same girl.

Then we go and wait.
The doctor comes in.
It's not the news we want.
It's not the challenges that we wanted for her.
My baby.
My sweet daughter.
She is playing as we talk and I love her so much and...
She's still the same girl.

heidi
written 9/7/2011

I have been really blocked since June, but I am trying to start back up. I also think that is has been long enough that I can appreciate some constructive comments on this poem. Thanks, and I hope you like it! heidi

14 comments:

  1. Heidi, this is heart-breaking. As a now-retired nurse, I find it so hard to deal with children in these situations...and yes, she is the same girl, and the repetition of that line is quite effective. Prayers, positive energy coming your way!

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    1. Thank you Victoria! She's doing really well. I'm glad you like the repetition, it's one of my favorite parts. I think it's an adult variation of chidren's please, please, please, please. All prayers and positive energy are gratefully appreciated and accepted!

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    2. It's beautiful! You need to write a book about the joy and the heartache. The joy does outweigh the heartache!
      Bless you and your sweet family. I love you!

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    3. Hey Tutta! Thank you for checking out my blog, and for the comment. I am not sure that I am up to a book yet...a poem a day has been draining me. I love you too!

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  2. I could feel your love and your concern and your hope throughout.... A poignant look at a mother's love, whatever life puts in the way.

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  3. Love the repetition as well. Really binds the stanzas together. I hope she is alright

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    1. She is doing much better now. She has Epilepsy and some developmental delays and is in school now. Thank you for your comments and concern.

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  4. wow this is really moving...it is hard to see our kids hurt...or have something...or for me to go to the doc...i just want them to be fine...so you def stirred the emotions in this one for me....i like your acknowledgement that she is still the same girl...smiles....

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  5. moved me deeply...having three kids myself and one was seriously sick during early childhood years, i know what a hard fight it can be..and yes...they're still the same..no matter what the diagnose is..wishing you much strength

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  6. Thanks Claudia! I'm glad this poem is ringing true, especially with parents. I can get cheesy and melodramatic quickly (esp. about my sweeties). Thank you for your comments.

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  7. As a mom myself, the repetition of the same girl in each stanza moved me ~ I hope she is doing well~

    Nice to meet you at D'verse ~

    Grace

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    1. Thank you Grace. She is doing very well now.

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