Wednesday, April 16, 2014

NaPoWriMo Day Sixteen: Ten Lies I Can't Seem to Stop Telling Myself

I have to be perfect.
I must berate myself constantly to be a good person.
No matter how hard I try, I am not good enough.
No one who really knows me could ever love me.
I need to be smarter.
I need to be funnier.
I need to be prettier.
One day he'll realize he's better off without mMe
My daughter is sick because of me.
I will never be good enough.

heidi
written 4/16/14 for
http://www.napowrimo.net/2014/04/day-sixteen/

Well that was not fun.
 

8 comments:

  1. I don't know how much of this is autobiographical and how much is fictional, but it saddens me. Humans are capable of making ourselves miserable. And for what?

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    1. Hi Ally! It's a little too autobiographical, although the ADHD meds are really putting a stop to it. I'm sorry about making you sad :( Your posts make me so happy!

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  2. ouch. yeah we create beliefs about ourselves that are hard to shake...blame, shame and perfection is probably the biggest lie of them all...

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  3. I empathize with all you have written here. And you're right; it's not very fun at all. I hope you take some solace in knowing that you are not alone in this.

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  4. Awww - I tell myself most of those same lies. x

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    1. These are very mean lies, Mary.

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